“Cause I don’t care if there’s nobody out there, don’t care if it’s cloudy out there. Promise to find you baby, and when I find you… Hold on to me, I’ll never leave.”

“Silence is NOT the best therapy”

Everybody always seem to judge nowadays;; have faith once in a while.. That’s why you call it your PAST you get over it && move on…Today’s a new day.. Let’s live in the present && worry more about the future.Doubting someone will get you nowhere, instead youre just pushing that one person away. Of course everyone has flaws but you shouldn’t use that against them thinking they’re going to be the same exact person a year ago or maybe just a couple months ago. It gets annoying after a while nobody seems to notice the good things a person has done but for god sake they notice your flaws. No ones perfect everybody messes up once twice or maybe more. That shouldn’t change how you feel about that person give them the benefit of a doubt maybe just maybe they really want to change or they already have… it might not be their whole personality or their actions but I’m sure something inside that person has changed to an extent. Forgive and forget. The most important thing is communication. People tend to forget how to communcate.. Sending wrong vibes or feelings toward one another ruins friendship, trust, and comfort you had with one another… How else is a person suppose to know they’re doing something wrong if you don’t talk about it with them instead of beating around the bush about it? You want that person to be better?! Help them, guide them! Silence is not the best therapy.

“Would have came back for you, i just needed time

To what i had to do, caught in the life

I cant let it go, whether that’s right i will never know”

Loveee this song!

My cousin

The one who I hated every other minute

My brother

In a way

The one who I hung out with

Almost the whole summer

The one who always made me angry & smile at the same time

God, you loved to scare me

You made me stay up late

Watching scary movies

You told me you’d always be there to protect me

And  you’d always be there when I needed someone to talk to

Now you  started slipping away slowly but surely

I feel like I don’t know you sometimes

I feel like you’ve left me behind

But you are my cousin, my brother I should say

You were the one I learned to confide in

To trust

But it makes me sad

That everything has changed suddenly

And I wonder what happened to you

What changed

And I sometimes find myself

Really missing you , the things we used to do together

Like brothers & sisters would do.

Youre right & everyone is right I guess..

Maybe im overreacting about this

&& maybe Im not used to it..

I just remember all the things we use to do

We were so close regardless of all the fights we’ve had

In the end, we’d make up & act all goofy again

 I guess you could say I miss that..

&& now I think to myself , who am I going to hang out with

&& be completely myself around with since were soo distant now…

You barely have time to talk to me about things

To see how im feeling , how my day went, or just have a normal conversation..

I guess I just cant wait until everything goes back to normal again..

But ill be honest with you..

I love you & miss you regardless of all the ups & downs weve been through

I just wished someday everything will be back to normal again..

Time heals all..

Written Jan 2011

The very beginning was a blur..
I never thought questioning myself how when what and why would be the cure..
Meeting you was very questionable for me
I didn’t know the answer..
You seemed to perfect
Caught me off guard..
To be honest I was scared..
Still am scared
There’s a lot running through my mind
I wanna protect you
Not physically but emotionally..
All these questions are cirling me..
How?..
How did all of this happen?
When?
When did I start to like you in a different way?
What?
What was I getting into?
And why?
Why do I feel cared for all of a sudden?
It may seem easy to answer
But for me its not
I’ve never felt this way before
And I honestly don’t know how to react to it
Its both good & bad
I’m soo cautious
That made my mind so nauseous
I love every single thing about you
I may have doubts but in the end
Or should I say the future?
I’m gonna listen to my heart
What I’ve been thinking from the start
That you’re the one I want..
It may sound crazy & you’re probably
Questioning urself is this really happening..
Well it is.. You swept me off my feet
And finally made my life complete
Its too soon…its happening too fast
But I can’t seem to stop what I’m feeling
I hope its okay, us actually being together
It May take awhile..
I just want you to know
You don’t have to run the mile
You’ll always have my smile
And keep it on file :)
Meanwhile let’s take this day by day
Because people will have a say
But who cares anyway
It’ll just be you & me
At the end of the day

L0VE
Didn’t think 4 letters, one simple word could make people go crazy. I don’t really know what love means I thought I did but somehow it always seems to slip away from me. In my own words I define love as a puzzle.. Every single person from acquaintances, friends,best friends, family, siblings, boyfriends, and ex boyfriends make up the word love for me. They all give me little pieces of them so I can put it together in the end.. But is there really an end to love?love is an emotional state of mind body and spirit..physically and emotionally… Its the feeling I get that no one would ever understand. Some people think love only comes with one significant other for me its not. Its everyone put together as one. For now I can only define love to an extent.. My experiences in my past determine the meaning of love for me..the future of the word love doesn’t exist for me yet atleast for now..Its my weakness yet its the feeling I know ill never forget and that I will hold on to forever.